Story: This sucked

I rubbed my eyes. What the hell did I thought. No reason existed to do this. There where others who are called for such things. Not me. Nothing in my past suggested it. This was a stupid idea.

I did it in spite of better knowledge. I should have known better. I felt a lump in my throat. My hands started to shake with every stroke. Where did I have gotten myself into? Why was exposing myself in this way necessary? It wasn't.

Nevertheless I did it. Did it felt right? Hell no! Was it even any good. Apparently not, but it had to be done. At least to improve, it had to be done.

I wrote my first story and it sucked!